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Thinking About A Certain Someone....!

Here lately for the past month and a half, I have been thinking and dreaming about this person. Nothing sexual, just been thinking about them. I had talk to a couple of people and they said it could be that I miss this person. No help becuase I already knew that, but why? Why am I miss this person who I haven't talked to in almost a year? I started to think about it.

Usually when I think of a person I haven't talked to in a while. It is a sign that I miss them, but it is also something more to it. Last time this had happen, I got a call from a friend telling me something had happened to the person I was thinking about. So that could be it too. Not sure though.

It could also be that we have unresolved issues that need to be resolve. We did/do have some issues between us. So much drama and things have happened and we just left it at that. It's not eating at me though. Also things that has caused the problem in our unresolves issues keep popping up. For instance this guy, who some say caused the problem, my cousin went on a field study with his school to visit different colleges. He ended up visting the same school the guy goes to and he saw him and told me about it. The other day last week, I talked to a friend, that was met mutually by this person. So all of this could be a sign that I may need to talk to this person and resolves things and close this chapter.

So I decided to call this person, but I remember being told they changed their number. So I can't do that. Then I decided to contact this person through a social community. I sent them a message telling them to call me and why I just suddenly hit them up. So I'll be waiting for a message back or a phone call from them.

I do hope to talk to this person and maybe settle things with them and close the chapter on this book of my life.

My Bad.... XD!

Okay I know I just threw a bunch of blogs at you, but those blogs are from my Myspace and DowneLink and Facebook page. I felt those would hel explain what a blog about most of the time and even though most of them are from 2008 and 2009. I thought should I put them up.

So now the blogs I post after this one, are all new ones. I will be blogging about any and everything that pops in my head.

I hope you enjoy my blogs! Thanks for dropping by!

The Reason Why I Make Blogs!

The reason why I write blogs is because I don't have that many people I can talk to. Everyone is just judgemental of what I have to say, because my opinions differ from their and nowadays it seems like everybody hates being wrong and disagreed with. Or they dont understand where I'm coming from and put words in my mouth. It gets on my nerves all the time. So I write some of the thing thats on my mind in blogs. Because I know I won't talk back to myself and neither will the VERY FEW TO NONE people who happened too stumble upon my blogs. So that is why I post blogs. I also post them so others can read them and give feedback.

That is all!

Underage or Overage Dating

Okay now I have a lot to say on this subject. Why is it when someone brings up the discussion on dating someone younger than you, they always bring up two of these excuses... "how would you feel if a 25 year old wanted to talk to your child that is 12" or "wouldn't it feel like you were dating your younger sibling?" That really pisses me off when they bring that up.

Okay, (1) If I had a 12 year old kid and the person who like them was 25 or older. I wuld have to step in, because that it TOO old, 13 years too old. But if it was a 18 or 19 year older. I would tell his or her ass to wait.

(2) I would not feel like I'm dating a sibling, because the person that I may like is NOT my sibling. Also my lil brother, if he was still alive, would be 18 and I could care less, who he dates and how old they are.

I'm not the one to step in the way of love. If you have a strong connection with someone younger than you or older than you. The connection is strong and you really get along with the person. Then go for it. The bible says nothing wrong with dating soeone younger or older than you. I live by "Gods Law" instead of mans law, anyway. So I guess that is just me.

I want a tongue ring!

I really want a tongue ring. It's not even a sex thing. I just like the noise it makes when you brush it across your teeth, and the way it feel when you kiss someone. I really want one.

The only problem I have with a tongue ring is that people automatically think just because a person wants a tongue ring, they suck dick or eat pussy. So what if I do. That is NOT the reason I want one.

I can sit here and say this all I want, but people are still going to think that you give head or face if or when you want a tongue ring. I want one because the rings I saw in the store looked cute. They had this Tinkerbell tongue ring, and I looove me some Tinkerbell, it was just so cute.

Tongue rings weren't made for giving head or eating pussy, they were made the same reason earrings and bellly-button rings were made, to look pretty and maybe even show off. I mean the orgin of tongue piercings came from the Native Aztecs to talk to the gods. How can you associate that with the immortal sins of oral sex?

But now since alot of people have associated tongue rings with oral sex. It kind of make some people not want to get one, because of all the judgement. I think that's wrong, because I know some people who have tongue rings, boys and girls, and they don't believe in oral sex. Me, personally I just want one because that Tinkerbell ring was just TOO cute. If I do give my man head so what, big deal. People suck dick and eat pussy WITHOUT a tongue ring. Atleast a tongue ring adds to the pleasure.

Libra's Love Compatibility

Libra's Love Compatibility
Libra Birth Dates: September 21 - October 20
Element: Air

A Good Love Match With: Aquarius and Gemini
A Zodiac love match between Aquarius and Libra is all about sharing, sharing sharing ... it's a beautiful thing to see. With Gemini a Libra finds that romantic spark that makes romance passionate. Gemini and Libra make a lively love combination ... and very passionate combination, too.

Somewhat Romanticlly Compatible With : Scorpio, Sagittarius, Leo and Cancer
The loving bonds between a Libra and a Scorpio can be passion, sexual and strong if the stars and planets align right ... if not, it'll be work. With Sagittarius, a Libra will find lots of friendship, adventure and romance ... if Sagittarius can accept that (to a Libra) not all adventures are worth taking. A Libra can love the passion and power of Leo, but can Leo find love in sharing quiet time with a Libra. If a Libra can find a balance between logic and emotion, then a romantic love with Cancer can be powerful stuff.

Least Romantically Compatible With: Aries, Capricorn and Virgo
Aries and Libra can attract each other is passionate lust ... but there it ends unless a LOT of work is done to find love. In romance, Capricorn is practical, conservative sometimes and Libra just isn't. Where Libra loves to chat endless and enjoy life, Virgo is measuring if romance is worthwhile ... and is it?

Maybe Love, Maybe Not: Pisces, Taurus and another Libra
With a Virgo, a romantic encounter with a Pisces (especially sexually) is either endlessly interesting or just endlessly undefined. Romance between a Taurus and a Virgo is a case of the school teacher finding romance with a school yard bully with a heart of gold. No telling how it'll work out. A Libra with a Libra will either talk all night ... or try romance ... either is OK.

Advice to Answer Rude Calls!

when someone calls your phone and says "who is this?"
HANG UP!!! hang the fuck UP on their asses! that is just fucking rude. how the hell you gon call MY house and ask 'who is this?', no sweetie who are you. maybe you should check the number and dial again. i don't care if you even if you know that more than one person or more than one family lives there. you say, "may be speak to so and so", not "who is this."
my cousin does that all the damn time when she calls, damn you don't know my voice yet? the hell? everytime she call.
me: hello... hello?
her: who is this?
me: no, who is this? you called this phone.
her: (attitude) who is this?
me: (click)
i know who it is on the phone, because i know her voice, and i know who she wants to talk to, but if like i said if you want to talk to a certain person just ask to speak to that person.

The Single Life [soft vent]


The single life is a good life, but it is not the best life. I'm not saying you need a significant other to be happy, because you DON'T! It's just that feeling you get when you go over your friends house and they have their significant other over. Kissing and cuddling, laughing and giggling, playing with each other and even when they fight... you get that feeling of "I wish i could have a relationship like that."

Maybe it's jealousy or envy or maybe you really do want a relationship, but the single life just does something to you. You're not tied down to anyone, you don't have to explain yourself, you don't have to worry if he or she thinks you are cheating on them. It's just YOU!

But I know somewhere deep down inside you wish you had that one person you can go toand have to your own and i'm not talking about a VERY CLOSE FRIEND either. Once he or she gets them someone, it's NEVER gonna be the same. He or she is not going to be there for you like they always have, they have their own and you feel left out.

SIngle life is good, but i aint great.

So why do people broadcast it like it's something so wonderful. I"M SINGLE WHOA!!! Who cares?

Maybe He’s Just Not Into You Or....

First of all, this is not a review to the movie starring Drew Barrymore and that other chick and that guy. I haven't seen the movie and I don't even know if it's out yet or been out. This is just another blog I'm posting to vent some frustrations. It is not and I repeat, IS NOT, directed towards anybody at all.
So if you give a number, YOUR number to be exact, to guy right? You kind of expect that guy to call you. Then when or if he doesn't you feel or think that he is not interested in you. I mean you gave him your number for a reason, unless you just randomly give your number out to different guys. If that is not the case then you are kind of expecting a call from that guy.
But... wait you can't get mad! If he didn't ask for your number, you shouldn't have given it out. I know he took the number from you, but that doesn't mean a damn thing. Unless the guy ask for thr number then there maybe a slight chance that he is interested and does want to call you.
Me, personally, I would've gotten his number first or got it after I gave him mines. Don't get me wrong, I mean if you like the guy and you want to get to know him, you give your number, but be sure that he feels the same as you. Just because he programmed your number into his phone around you, doesn't mean he is not going to erase it after you walk away or leave.
I, myself, hate when guys do this. If you are NOT gonna to call me. Don't take my number, because in a way I will be expecting a call from you. After a few days have passed and you don't call, it kind of sucks. You guys hate it when a female does to you, so imagine how we feel.
I don't get it. You say you feeling a girl and/but that you want to take things slow. If you are feeling a person you kind of want to get to know that person. So I think if you are not going to be seeing this person everyday, you should at least call. I mean you can't take things slow and see how the person really is and whatnot unless you TALK to that person. I hope you don't expect that person to come up to your job everday; spending her gas money and car-fare [bus fare], just to see you, when you can't even call. Like really? If this person has a job of their own and have to work and do other things. That is not going to happen.
Seriously, if you like someone let it be known, because that is how you end up losing the good ones.
This goes for the females too... ya'll be acting the same way and wonder why yo can't get a good man.


I really hate the use the word "niggas", because to me it's just a slang word for "nigger" though black people try to use it as way to communicate with each other. To me its different and today I have to use the word and I'm using "niggas" to describe ignorant people. Such as boys who THINK they are men, but don't know how to grow up. Ignorant niggas who stay in their comfort zone, knowing its doing nothing good for them. Ignorant niggas who are stuck in their ways, and either don't want to grow out of them or don't know how to get out of them. These are the "niggas" I'm blogging about today.

Well actually refferring to and focusing on one nigga at this moment. I would call him a man and I would call him a boy, but me calling him those would be an insult to the human race. He knows who he is and I don't give a damn.

How can you be willing to change your ways one moment and the next you back to your old ways? I know the male race are just as confusing as the females, but damn this nigga is crazy. It is amazing how you can go on like that and expect there to be no consequences. You actually think no one is going to say something to you. Are you fucking kidding me? Are you that out of whack with life? Are you retarded? I mean, like damn.

You really think you can go on in life like this? You really honest to God think you can go on in life like this... and be successful? NIGGA these bitches will cut you down and spit you out. No female in her right mind would want a guy like you. Well just for a friendly fuck every once in a blue moon. Then after they get what they want. You're out of the picture and most of the time... forgotten. Your like that guy that the girl slept with, because she extremely horny and the next day she forgets who you are, and when she meets you again its... 'I fucked you? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? I fucked you! What the FUCK was I thinking? I had to either be extremely horny, pissed-faced drunk, or STUPID AS HELL!!!!' She'll probably do 35 Hail Mary's everyday for the rest of her life. "What the fuck was I thinking?" What the fuck WAS she thinking?

Denying the fact that you have a girl to any and every body that you meet! Really pisses me off. If you can't appreciate your girlfriend, then you are SHIT to her and you DON'T DESERVE her either, but yet if you find out she denies your black ass you ready to cuss, scream, yell, hissyfit, bitch, moan, groan, cry, and PMS all over her ass. How the hell you gon get mad when you doing that same thing?

Lying to your girlfriend, telling her your always busy, you got this and that to do. You don't be wanting to talk to nobody, you don't call anybody. When your girlfriend PAYS YOUR BILLS, WELL because ya'll on a shared plan. Don't you think that when she gets the bills she checks out ya'll call log. I've seen your bill... and dammit the outgoing calls outwieght the incoming calls.

Cheating. Oh my god. Cheating. Why must you cheat so much. Why? Why? Why? I don't see the point in cheating. You always get caught. Why not just leave the person you're with. Is it the fact that you can fuck two people at once? Does that notion turns you on? Really? Because from medical belief that is how dieases get spreaded and niggas end up getting the other girl pregnant. You're in deep shit now. Got an STD with a baby on the way. Why cheat and then why get mad at your girl when she is doing the same thing you are.

I came to the conclusion that niggas, not men, are way worse off than women when it comes to emotions and the mind. Men are way more sensitive than women and far more delusional then women. I watch "Tough Love" on VH1 and I come to believe it's the men that have the problem, not the women. Back to my blog.

You're a loser. You're a liar. You're selfish. You're RETARDED and need to get your act together before you end up alone. Please take my advice. Stop being a tool. You're girl loves you and she puts up with your shit, for, I don't know what reason, but stop what you are doing, before you lose a good woman and lose your 80 and end up with a 20.

That is all my good friend. Goodnight.

Wet Dreams and Moist Nightmares to Everybody!

21 Great Pieces of ADVICE!

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all
you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams
don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the
only way to live life completely.

TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer,
smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve
great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for
other's; and responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate
steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it
in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

They're just not that into you

I got this off of a friends blog from downelink

They're just not that into you if they're not asking you out.

An excuse is a polite rejection. Ppl are not afraid of "ruining the friendship."

If you can find them, then they can find you. If they want to find you,they will.

Ppl don't forget how much they like you.

So put down the phone.

They're just not that into you if they're not calling you.
If they're not calling you, it's because you are not on their mind.

If they create expectations for you, and then doesn't follow through on little things,they will do the same for big things. Be aware of this and realize that they're okay with disappointing you.

Don't be with someone who doesn't do what they say they're going to do. If they're choosing not to make a simple effort that would put you at ease and bring harmony to a recurring fight, then they doesn't respect your feelings and needs.

"Busy" is another word for "asshole." "Asshole" is another word for the person you're dating.

They're just not that into you if they're not dating you.
Ppl tell you how they feel even if you refuse to listen or believe them. "I don't want to be in a serious relationship" truly means "I don't want to be in a serious relationship with you" or "I'm not sure that you're the one." (Sorry.)

Better than nothing is not good enough for you!

If you don't know where the relationship is going, it's okay to pull over and ask.

Murky? Not good.

There's a person out there who will want to tell everyone that there yours.

Quit goofing around and go find them.

They're just not that into you if they're having sex with someone else.
There is no excuse for cheating. Let me say it again. There is no excuse for cheating. Now you say it. There is no excuse for cheating.

Cheating is cheating.

It doesn't matter who it was with or how many times it happened.

Cheating gets easier everytime it's done. It's only hard the first time, when one feels the sting of morality and the guilt of betraying someone's trust.

A cheater only cheats himself, because they doesn't get to be with you.

They're just not that into you if they only wants to see you when they're drunk.
Drinking and drug use are not a path to one's innermost feelings. Otherwise people wouldn't smash empty beer cans against their skulls or stick their fingers in fire to see if they can feel anything.

If they only wants to see you, talk to you, have sex with you, etc., when they're inebriated, it ain't love - it's sport.

Bad ppl are actually bad.

They're just not that into you if they're breaking up with you.
You can't talk your way out of a breakup. It is not up for discussion. A breakup is a definite action, not a democratic one.

Breakup sex means you're still broken up.

Cut them off. Let them miss you.

They're just not that into you if they have disappeared on you.
They might just be lying in the hospital with amnesia, but more likely they're just not that into you.

No answer is no answer.

Don't give them the chance to reject you again.

Let their mother yell at them. You're too busy.

They're just not that into you if they're married (and other insane variations of being unavailable)
Unless they're all yours, they're still hers.

Don't be that girl.

Reset Your Standards
A standard is setting a level for yourself of what you will or won't tolerate. You get to decide how it's going to be for you. You can now design the person you want to be in the future, and the standards you want to have. Write your new standards down so you'll never ever forget them, no matter how cute they are or how long it's been since you've had sex. Make sure you know what you stand for and what you believe in.


You know what I dislike? People who are not straight forward when it comes to They sugarcoat it or swim around the subject.


If you have something you want to ask me. Then dammit ask me. Stop beating around the bush. I can't read your minds and I am damn sure not taking any hints. If you're not going to ask me then I'm not going to answer. I don't know what you are saying. Help me understand you.

If you want to get with me. Then SAY IT. If you want to fuck me. SAY IT! If you want to talk to me. SAY IT! The worse thing I'm going to do is say 'No'!

Well really don't ask to fuck me. Because the answer IS & WILL always be "NO!"

Just ask me. Just say it. I'm tired of trying to figure out what people are trying to say.

If you have something to ask me. GO AHEAD AND ASK ME STRAIGHT UP!

Why You Gotta Be So Complicated?

Why do people have to be so damn complicated? I ask you the simplest questions in the world and you give me the most complicated answers in the world. What is that? Why is that? How hard is it to say 'Yes' or 'No'? How hard can it be to let your mind to comprehend that?

I can see if I asked for money. Then I can understand it may take time to say 'yes' or 'no'. Still your answer SHOULDN'T be complicated. I know the economy is slow and you might not have the money at the moment.

I hate when people say "I have to think about it!" What in the world do you have to think about? Its either 'yes' or 'no'. Damn you act like I asked you to end world hunger or something. When you tell me you have to think about. I consider you saying 'No' and I moved on. Now you mad because I dropped the subject that you still on.

I ask what you doing? You give me a "Well I don't know what I'm doing today. I'm supposed to go..." No-No. I asked what you doing as of right now. I don't care what you doing later on. What you doing is you on the phone talking to me, while either laying down, watching tv, on the computer, listening to music, or you at work. Why can't you just say that. Going into all your information. I don't care about that? Damn I didn't ask what you doing today" I asked what doing as in what yoour are doing right now.

I also hate when I ask someone what they watching. They want to go all into the movie. Just gimme the title of the movie. I could careless what its about. Odds are I already seen it or I don't want to see it.

I hate when I call someone and they wanna ask you 20 questions. I hang up after that.

I just wish people would answer simple questions with simple answers. The world would be a better place. Because simple answers don't lead to miscommunications. They are more honest and truthful. They don't leave you confused.

Now there are some answers that are too simple, but I don't want to get into that.

Again this blog is directed to NO ONE. Don't flatter yourself.

Wait For You?

Okay I see that I am in one of my moods. Where so many subjects pop in my head and I just have to talk about them or atleast blog it.

(Clears Throat)

People kill me. They want you wait for them, while they go mess around with any and everybody they see. People are so selfish.

Once they feel or see that you are doing the same thing. They want to get mad you and break everything off.

Why should I wait for you? When you can't wait for me? Why should you be the one that gets to mess around while I sit there all alone with no one but myself. I have needs too! You out there messing around with everybody and I only have to do you.

What if I get horny and you out doing someone else? What? I'm supposed to go take a cold shower? Play with myself? No!

I am not going to wait for you. If you know you want to be with me. Then be with me and no one else.

This blog is directed to NO ONE! So don't flatter yourself.


I get angry when things don't go my way.

I can get mad. Then 5 to 10 minutes later, I'm over it!

I hate people who can't laugh at themselves.

People who are ready to fight when they get called out their name. Are as immature as the person who called them a name. Be secure with your shit. Then you won't get your undies in a bunch when people say shit to you.

Don't talk to me if you don't like me.

I hate when people ask for my number and don't call me. If your not going to call me, why ask for my number.

I don't do booty calls. I choose when we do it.

BE YOURSELF! Not who you THINK I want you to be.

DON'T LIE TO ME. I respect you more for your honesty.

If you don't want to be with me. Leave me alone.

I never give out fake numbers. If I don't want you to have it. I'm not giving it to you.

Seriously if I wanted to talk to you. I would be talking to you. Don't come up to me asking why I won't get out the car or why I'm sitting over there and not talking. If I wanted to talk. I would talk.

If you have a girlfriend/boyfriend, don't talk to me. I don't have time for that shit.

Ladies please. Don't call me asking me to stop talking to your man. When it's obvious that he's the one calling me. Check ya man before you step to me.

I like it when people brag about how good they are in bed. I die so hard when they'e not.

I DON'T FUCK WITH MARRIED MEN/WOMEN. We can be friends and thats it.

Why does it feel like... when you decide to move on. They want you back. They start calling and coming over, wanting to go out. WHAT THE FUCK! Why don't you want me to be happy?


I just love how people throw their bibles at me. When their sins are far worse than mines. You know a sinner calling another sinner a "sinner" is an ABOMINATION! Committing an abomination is the BIGGEST SIN known.

I don't go by first impressions. First impression are usually bullshit. Maybe the fourth or fifth impression.

Just because you had sex with someone doesn't mean your are dating them. So don't get mad if they sleep with someone else. Just make sure you both are using protection!

Setting standards is a good thing. Just make you KNOW what you want and not what you think you want.

I like cake.

I tend to fall easy..., but once I get up. I'm over it!

I hate my feet.

I'm a freak.

I'm a geek and can be nerdy at times.

I am a weird unique indiviual.

I don't like to share.

I'm very territorial.

I like girls too.

I hate strawberry ice cream.

I'm bored again!

Know When To Let Go!

You have to know when to let go. And. Know when it is time to let go. It's not always going to be easy. But we should know by now that, 'Life Is Not Easy' but we have to do what we have to have to make it s alot less harder.

Sometimes that means letting of certain things and people in your life. We got to 'lose the stress to get with the best'.

And that is exactly what I am doing.

Sometimes you don't want to let go of something that used to make you happy, because you think somehow in the near future, it will make you happy again. The truth is, it won't. It will very seldomly rarely make you happy again. Just let it go.

Don't hold on to something that doesn't want to be held on to. Don't hold on to something that isn't your anymore OR wasn't yours in first place! Don't hold on to something that makes cry, hurts you, makes you feel inferior and less of a person. Don't hold on to it anymore.

If it is "meant-to-be" it will happen. If you are "meant-to-be" with someone let it go. Let him or her go. Stop calling them, texting them, emailing them, checking up on their status on myspaces, facebook, twitter, tagged, tokbox, etc. Just let it go. Walk away and move on with your life and make yourself happy.

Let go of everything they have done to you. Tell them you forgive them and go.

UNDERSTANDABLE, you may love this person and that person may also love you too, but if that person doesn't want to be in a monogamous relationship with you and isn't willing to commit to you and them. Then let it go and move on. No matter how many years you've known them or been with them. It is time to let go and move on. Hopefully onto someone and something better. If it's really mean-to-be, then it will happen.

Just like they say, "If you love somethings you have to let go. If it comes back thats when you will know." That is a true saying.

BUT you must ALSO know that sometimes when they come back, it's not always a good thing. That's when YOU, yourself, have to say "No. No more. Not again. Not this time or ever." Get a backbone and stand up and let them know that you let go and moved on for a reason.

If they really came back because of love. Make them work for it, just a little bit. BUT DON'T BE BITTER WITH IT! Because then you might end up losing the one. Just let them know your worth.

Ladies and Gentlemen, learn to let it go. Its going to be hard and it might be rough. You have to work at it, because happiness isn't easy.

5 Stages of Committed Relationships

5 Stages of Committed Relationships
By Sarah Schultz

Have you ever wondered: Why is our relationship so hard? Things were so perfect when we first met - what happened? Most likely, the answer is that you’ve left the first stage of your relationship, and have moved into another. But could it really be that easy?

Yes! Most people understand that relationships grow and change over time… but what many people don’t know is that they tend to evolve in the same way. There are specific, defined stages of long-term relationships, which offer new feelings, new challenges to overcome, and new opportunities for growth. And if you want your relationship to evolve into one of mutual respect, love and intimacy, it’s likely that you’ll have to experience all of the following relationship stages at some point or another. Take a look at the description of each phase – do any of this sound familiar?

Before we get started, you should know that most people experience these stages in this order, and will need to resolve the challenges in each stage before they can move successfully on to the next. Of course there are always exceptions to this rule. But for the most part, you can’t get out of experiencing all of these stages if you want a healthy and fulfilling relationship. Every couple will move through these stages at different speeds, and most people will experience each stage more than once – it is common to fluctuate from one stage to another.*

Okay, now that I’ve given you the basic info, let’s dig a little deeper….

Stage 1 – The Romance Stage
This is also known as the Courtship Phase or the Fantasy Stage, and can last anywhere from 2 months to 2 years. This is when you and your partner have just met, and everything is absolutely amazing. You can’t get enough of each other. Neither of you can do any wrong in the eyes of the other… mainly because you’re both still on your best behavior. The focus in this stage is on commonalities – you have so many common interests, you could practically be the same person! You show your partner your absolute best self, and you try to please each other as much as possible. Conflict is seen as “bad” in this stage, and is avoided at all costs. You can’t imagine living without this person, so you begin spending as much time together as possible. This is the stage when our defenses are down the most, which allows you to be open to and fall in love. You and your partner are building an important foundation in this stage, so your relationship can grow. There are biological effects as well. When you’re in this stage, your body is producing enormous amounts of endorphins, which makes you feel unusually happy, positive and excited about everything in your life (this is that “head over heels in love” feeling!). This is the stage most often portrayed in movies and romantic novels, for obvious reasons. Bottom line – you are happier than you’ve ever been, and can’t imagine ever feeling any differently.

Stage 2 – The Disillusionment Stage
This stage is also known as the Familiarization Stage, or the Adjusting to Reality Phase. This is where you begin to realize that your partner is actually a human being (horror of horrors!). You get to know each other more and more, and as a result you start recognizing their various flaws and shortcomings. You see your partner in relaxed situations, and you become more relaxed as well. Since your body cannot possibly continue to produce the same levels of endorphins that it was in the beginning, those feelings of being on top of the world start to decline. Your partner’s little habits aren’t quite as cute as they used to be, but there is still enough goodwill from the Romance Stage that you’re willing to overlook them. This stage can start to trickle into your relationship slowly, as you begin to see your partner for who s/he really is. Or sometimes it happens all of a sudden, when there has been some sort of dishonesty or deceit. This phase can be confusing and discouraging, since you’ve just experienced so much openness and connection in the Romance Stage. However, at this stage, your main job is to learn how to communicate and resolve conflict with this person effectively, which is an important skill if you want your relationship to continue.

Stage 3 – The Power Struggle Stage
This stage is also known as the Disappointment Phase or Distress Stage. As the characteristics from the Disillusionment Phase intensify, they become harder and harder to deal with. You will most likely begin to pull away from each other in this stage. At this point, you both still believe that conflict is a “bad” thing, but you are increasingly aware of your many differences. You fight to draw boundaries in the relationship, and as a result even small annoyances become big issues. This is the stage where you define unacceptable behavior, and most couples have occasional or frequent thoughts of leaving the relationship. More and more often, you start to feel like your partner is self-centered or un-caring, or even worse, that they simply can’t be trusted. Deep resentments begin to build if you’re unable to resolve your issues in a respectful and mutually agreeable way. Many couples get stuck in this stage, because this way of interacting becomes normal in their relationship. This is when it is absolutely necessary to learn to manage your differences effectively - to communicate and work together as a team, even though it’s tempting to believe that your partner’s sole purpose on Earth is to make your life difficult. Not surprisingly, this is the stage most couples are in when they decide to break up or file for divorce. However, if they are able to negotiate all of the landmines during this phase, they’ll move on to….

Stage 4 – The Stability Stage
This is a restful and peaceful time, compared to the last stage. This stage is also known as the Friendship Phase or Reconciliation Stage. Some couples never make it to this stage, but the ones who do find that they have deeper feelings of love, connection and trust with their partner. You now have history together, and most people begin to rely on the predictability of the relationship. As you enter this stage, you begin to realize that your partner isn’t perfect, but your personal differences aren’t quite as threatening as they used to be. You’re able to resolve most of your differences, at least to some extent, and you become more confident in the relationship. Some people feel a sense of loss in this stage as they learn to accept their partner for who they truly are, since this means they have to let go of the fantasy that was established early on in the relationship. But for the most part, the deepening sense of friendship and commitment is a good trade-off for those early feelings of butterflies and excitement. This is also when you begin to re-establish your own outside interests and friendships, which were given up in the Romance Phase. There is some danger that you may begin to drift apart from or become bored with your partner in this phase, so you should try to maintain the connection that was created in the Romance Phase. Overall, this is the stage when you finally begin to feel comfortable and happy with your deepening relationship.

Stage 5 – The Commitment Stage
This stage is also known as the Acceptance Phase, the Transformation Stage, or the Real Love Phase. It is estimated that fewer than 5% of couples actually make it to this stage, according to The Relationship Institute. This is the stage when both couples have a clear notion of who their partner is, faults, foibles and weaknesses galore… yet they make a conscious choice to be with this person in spite of all of those things (and in some cases, because of those things). You are no longer with your partner because you need them, but because you’ve chosen them, which means the level of resentment you felt in the Power Struggle Phase has decreased, if not disappeared. If you’ve made it to this stage, you and your partner are a team. You genuinely love your partner, and you look out for their best interests just as much as you look out for your own. Your partner is your best friend. There are few surprises about your partner's habits or character in this phase. You’ve collaborated to overcome many challenges together, and have grown to accept and support each other without restriction. Your vision for your relationship is in congruence with who you are and what you both truly want. You have discussed your future together - you have similar life goals, and you feel encouraged to define your relationship further. Many couples decide to make a formal or public commitment to each other in this stage (such as marriage) to demonstrate their intention to continue their relationship. This is the stage in which your relationship becomes a true partnership.

Are You Afraid of the Truth?

I have a question. How hard is it to tell the truth? How is it hard to tell the truth? Is the truth that hard to tell? Are you afraid of hearing the truth? Does honesty scare you?

Please help me out here!

Because I feel that alot of people are afraid of the truth. They are afraid of hearing the truth and they are afraid of telling the truth. Which in my opinion is stupid. Why would be afraid of the truth. Why would you be afraid of honesty and being honest? How?... How?

How? How can you be afraid of it? Its the truth. I would rather someone tell me the truth than lie to me. I might not like it, but I'll respect it.

People say they want to be honest and have honesty in their relationships, but how can u have that if you're afraid of it.

The truth will set you free. It honestly will. Hearing the ACTUAL truth will set you free. It will set you free and make you happy, because you won't be living a lie.

The truth only hurts when you've been lied to. Remember that, okay? That is the only time it will hurt you. If you tell the truth it will make you happy too. You don't have to be brutal or mean with it, but telling the HONEST TO GOD truth will set you free as well.

I wanna know something from all of you. Leave your answers in the comments.

1. Are you afraid of telling the truth? And why?
2. Are you afraid of hearing the truth? And why?
3. Do you always tell the truth?
4. Do you lie to people to spare their feeling? And why?

I'm A Hoe Because I Have Male Friends!!!

How am I a hoe? Because I hang around more guys than I do females? Because I have more male friends than I do females? Because you see me with a different guy every once in a while? How am I a hoe? Please somebody, anybody tell me why and how am I a hoe? Because I am very confused.

You mean to tell me that its okay for ONE guy to have TEN female friends? But let me, ONE female, have THREE to FIVE male friends and I get labeled a hoe? Wow! What pisses me off even more, because it the females that's doing the name calling. I never knew females fed into this double standard bullshit.

You can have friends of the opposite sex and not want to or even think about having sex with them. I don't know where people got idea that we were only put on this earth just to fuck each other.

You can have friends of the opposite sex and only think of them in a platonic way. I have FIVE of them and yes they are good looking sexy motherfuckers, but I could never see myself dating them. I mean of course I thought about it, it is NORMAL and NATURAL to think about it, but you will never react on it.

I don't understand how I could be labeled a hoe. I never had sex with them. I never dated them. I have done nothing but been seen in public with them. Sometimes THREE of them or TWO or even ONE. So what? That's just like going out with females... but I guess because they are guys, thats means I'm fucking them and I'm a hoe. GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!

I'm not explaining myself to anyone and I'm not going to stop being friends with them either. I have female friends too and I go out with them too. I don't prefer male friends over female friends. I just happen to get along with males the better. Yes, my bestfriend is a FEMALE, love you sexy lady, but my friends are mostly males. If you can't digest that, then walk away from me.

This is mainly towards the females. Don't you have males friends that you don't fuck? Then why can't have male friends that I don't fuck?

Ladies you are the reason men and boys think its OK to call us hoes, sluts, bussa, tricks, bitches. They think if we're calling each other those names. So can they. They think its OK do what they please with us. Ladies take a good look at whats going on around you and STOP IT.

I'm tired of it!

I Feel Pressured by Family to Have a Child!

I am the only one in this generation of my family to not have any kids. Which is the 4th Generation and consist between the age range of 20 to 25. I kind of feel like I'm being pressured to have kids. My mom keeps asking, my cousins keep making comments and some of my friends are wondering why. Sometimes I feel bad. Sometimes I get mad.

I know that I can have kids. The doctors told me so. Its just I am not ready for a child yet and I'm not stable enough to take care of a child. Some people call me selfish because I want to get all my party years out of the way before I have a child. Plus there are things I want to do that a child would interfere with. I want to live my life way and do things and not have to worry about a child and where and when I can find somebody to baby-sit.

I actually think I'm not selfish. NOT ONE BIT. If you think about it when I do have my child. I have lived my life the way I wanted to and I don't have to look back and try to play catch up. My clubbin days will have come to an end or I won't be going out as much. And running around and hanging with my friends will just be play dates and chillin at the houses.

My child will be my number one priority and nothing else. I don't have to worry about getting someone to watch my child when I can do that myself. Yeah I'll go out sometimes, but then I can count on my mommy to watch my child, she'll be old anyway. Just kiddin.

I am 24 years old. I have cousins and friends my age and some a few years under. They sometimes can't go out because their mothers are not about to watch their kid. They feel already raised and watched their child and they are not about raise and watch yours. Or they can't get someone to watch their child. I like that I can come and go as I please. I'm PROUD of that. I wish my family and friends would realize that. Well some do.

The reason why I am not pregnant or have a child is... I'm TRYING to NOT get pregnant. I go to my OB-GYN after every single home BBT test I take. So I know when I'm ovulating and when I shouldn't have sex. I count my days when the time comes. I'm not ready, but if I do become pregnant between now and the age I actually waiting to have a kid. I'll do whatever it takes to take care of my child.

Before I end the nice lengthy blog. I want to say. To those who do have kids. I'm not downing you at all. If I offended you its only because you took this blog that way.

Out with the Old. In with the New!

I am deleting all the contacts out of my phone, except the ones i dp actually talk, which NOT even that many. The others ones are just waste of space. I'm due for some new friends. Maybe ones who care about me as much as I care about them.

Why am I doing this? Well I have 37 contacts in my phone. These include family members, friends, restuarants, and others. If we took away the restuarants, family members, and the friend who I DO talk to. Then I have over 20 something people who are just wasting space in my phone. Those space could go to new people and friends I could met in the near future.

None of the people in my contact calls me. Maybe a few. So what's the purpose of keeping. I can't even get in contact with them. I know most of them are not even busy.

I like to text, but I also like to talk. That is the main reason I have a phone. TO TALK. I text because people text stupid shit, I am not talking about forwards. How can you text me to say "What up?" or "What u doin?" and I text you back and you hit me back at all. Don't text me wasting my time. You could have called me and asked my that and we could've had a decent conversation.

I'm not getting into though. I'm going to have alot of empty space in my phone tonight.

That is all!


I figured out why alot of relationships don't work. I'm talking about without the cheating on each other and other shit. This is the problem with some females in straight, bi and gay relationships.

Females tend to trust easier than men. This is true and a known fact. A female is QUICK to call someone her friend or lover and they JUST met them. With a guy they'll hang out with you all day shit all week, and still won't calim you as their friend, until they feel they can have some trust in you.

The problem is that a female want to love and be loved and they want it so bad that two weeks into their relationship their already calling the guy or girl their hubby/wifey or "this my man/woman". I mean you just met don't jump so quick into the relationship. This is a problem with men too.

People jump into relationships too quick. They don't even know each other, so when sex does come into play that seems to be the main thing they want. I have been a victim of this a few times, but I have learned myself that it takes time to get to know someone.

Thats why when you hear people saying, it was all good in the beginning and now all we do is argue. Their true colors started to show. That's because you jumped into to quick.

I, NOW, know that when I get with someone, before we claim each other, we gone get to know each other to where I can see his/her true colors before we make it a relationship. Then I'll know if this is what I want to deal with and who I want to be with. It's hard because when it does seem to be going good, you just want to start it right then and there, but NO relationship is perfect. Even after you have REALLY got to know that person you still gon have problems and argue, but you'll know what you're dealing with when you do.


There IS a DIFFERENCE between Bisexuality and Bicurious.

I have come to the conclusion that most of your girls on her don't know what bisexual really means. Some of you just put it there because you may find other girls attractive, but when you come to the conclusion that you can NEVER see yourself having sex with another girl... then your just BICURIOUS!!!! Some of your just put it there because you know alot of guys are going to add you because they THINK they can get an automatic threesome and some guys think that is sexy.

Bisexuals are pople who like the same and opposite sex. Some bisexuals like the same sex more than the opposite sex and some like the opposite sex more than their same sex. They are attracted to both genders and have sex with both genders. Not just one gender and think the other is just cute, because that makes you... either STRAIGHT or a LESBIAN.

Bicuriuos are people who may find themselves attracted to both genders and may have fantasies and dream about the same sex or a threesome, but they would never go through with it, unless they REALLY want to do it.

When they ask are you bi on here. They mean BISEXUAL not bicurius, because that confuse a BISEXUAL person of the same sex who is interested in you.

There is a difference and I wish some of you would realize that because you are putting out the wrong message about yourself.


i had to post this... one for me to remember and NEVER forget and for some of you people on DL...

someone once told me this and since that person has told me i have never had a bad relationship.

"Never fall in love with someone you love. Fall in love with someone who loves YOU!"

So true!


1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This isn't actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous statements a woman can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever
Is a women's way of saying FUCK YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's wrong?" (For the woman's response refer to #3.)

Relation Vacation... wtf???

Hey, we are not Heidi & Spencer.
There is no such thing as a "Realtionship Vacation"
Oh my bad, "Relation Vacation".
You wanna break up? Just fucking say it.
Okay so you don't want to break up.
You need some space?
How the fuck can a relationship take a vacation?
What is a vacation? Answer me please.
A vacation is...
a period of suspension of work, study, or other activity, usually used for rest, recreation, or travel; recess or holiday
A vacation is...
freedom or release from duty, business, or activity.
A vacation is...
A period of time devoted to pleasure, rest, or relaxation,
A vacation is...
leisure time away from work devoted to rest or pleasure
A vacation is...
The act of vacating; a making void or of no force; as, the vacation of an office or a charter.
A vacation is...
Intermission of a stated employment, procedure, or office; a period of intermission; rest; leisure.
How can a RELATIONSHIP do that?
A relationship is work, but damn not THAT kind of work.
If you feel you need a "Relation Vacation" then maybe we should call it quits.
You want a realtionship to work then we both have to work at it.
There is NO vacation for a relationship.


Fake Numbers... Stop It!

I have never in my life given out a fake number. I just don't give out my number period. If I don't want you to have it. You're not getting it. When a guy or girl comes up to me and ask for my number... "No thank you. I'm not interested" or "I don't give out my number to just antybody!"

Don't give out fake numbers please, you might end up giving out someone number and it IS your fault they have to deal with a stalker. Stop giving out fakes numbers and just WALK AWAY or just say "NO!!!"
The reason I'm making this blog is because someone dumb chick decided to give a guy a fake number. What she didn't know was... that fake number turned out to be MY CELL PHONE NUMBER. I had to deal weeks with this damn fool telling him. I don't know him, I never met, I don't know what he looks likes, I DON'T EVEN LIKE DUDES!!!. Finally his stupid ass realized that chick give him a fake number. []
There are plenty of reason you shouldn't give out fake numbers.
(1) You might end up giving someones REAL number, They have to deal with tha stalker, because of you!
(2) When that person finds out it's a fake number and they end up seeing you agaon. You MIGHT have some reprecussion.
(3) It's a stupid thing to do anyway.
(4) If you are going to give out a fake number.... GIVE THEM THE NUMBER TO THE REJECTIONS HOTLINE. If you don't the numbe. Here is the website, so you can give out numbers from your area.
(5)That is all!!!

Wet Dreams and Moist Nightmares to Everybody!

Boy Why ARE You So Obsessed With Me!

"Why you so obsessed with me (Boy I wanna know) Lying that you're sexing me (when everybody knows) It's clear that you're upset with me. Finally found a girl that you couldn't impress. Last man on the earth still couldn't hit this. You're delusional, you're delusional. Boy you're losing your mind. It's confusing yo, you're confused you know. Why you wasting your time!"

Seriously this boy is obsessed with because I'm bisexual. Its likes his fantasy is to have a threesome with me. I don't even think it has anything to do with me being a bisexual. He was like this before I told him what I was. He always textin me asking where I'm at? Calling me all hours of the day. Sending me pic of himself. Even a dick shot. By the way dick is starting to disgust me.

This boy is obsessed and all I did was go on a date with him and gave him a hug. The only reason I went on a date with him is so my friends would get off my back about not going out. The hug, because I'm a friendly person.

I'm going to stop being friendly, because either people think I'm flirting with them or their man or they think I'm a slut. I can't help it that I walk around with a smile on my face and I don't let shit get to me and I just start talking to a person, out of nowhere, that I don't even know. I was raised right I guess.

Why go around antisocial and mean mugging people. I been through too much in my life. I can't get mad anymore.

Back to stalker. Its all good until he starts coming around without noticed. When that starts happening. RESTRAINING ORDER! But now I think he mad at me. He blogged about me on myspace... LMAO!

It's Not That Hatd To Get Over Someone

It's not hard to get over someone. It's not 'easier said than done' either. It's not worth the dwelling, the tears, the heartache. Getting over someone is not hard at all.

Grieving period? For what? What are we grieving? No one died. All that happened is we broke up, be it mutual or bad blood. What are we crying for? Stop your crying. Wipe your tears. Save them for a joyous day.

If you broke up with someone. Don't cry. Obviously it wasn't working out and you wasn't feeling it enough to know that it wouldn't last. Be happy you caught the bullshit before it exploded. Be happy that you don't have to deal with it anymore. Only thing I will say is, I hope it was the right decision and you didn't let the right one get away.

If someone broke up with you. THEIR LOST, NOT YOURS! Remember that. You didn't lose anything. You gained a lesson. You gained experience. You gain a chance to get with someone better. Don't dwell on their bullshit and mistakes.

Don't. DO NOT! I repeat. PLEASE! Do not jump into a relationship with another person. Give yourself some time. Not to think about what went wrong. Give yourself sometimes for yourself. You just got out of a relationship. Try being alone for two weeks to a month. Grow and learn from your past experience. Then get into a relationship.

Stop thinking about being alone. Jumping in and out of relationship is not good. YOU WILL END UP ALONE. Taking some time off for yourself, growing and learning, and eventually finding other ways to make you feel loved. Seriously no one can love you the way you can love yourself. Taking time off is good, because once you get into a relationship, it will last longer than any of the "jump-in, jump-out" flings you were having before.

I got a little off topic for a minute.

It's not hard at all. It's not easy either. You will live. Just don't dwell on it. Move on. There is better. Trust me.


Being young is not an excuse. Being drunk is not an excuse. You're not dumb. You're not stupid. You know right from wrong. You have common sense. GROW THE FUCK UP AMERICA!

Food for Thought! #1

If you take someone back after they cheated on you. YOU ARE OBLIGATED TO STOP TALKING ABOUT IT. You put yourself in a position to shut the fuck up and leave it be. But some people don't realize that. Thats why they end up losing the person and sitting at home wondering what YOU did wrong to make that person. You took that person back, which meant, YOU FORGAVE THEM. If your not gonna stop talking about it. Then why be with someone you can't trust!

I Am the Unwanted!

I always had a feeling of being the unwanted in the family. No, this is not a pity blog. Don't need pity and I don't need anyone to feel sorry for me. I could care less or give a damn about the attention. This blog is about me finally coming to terms of what I always expected.

Please hold your pity and your bullshit crappy advice. You judging me in the last thing I need. I know I'm not an angel and I have done and said things I shouldn't. I blame no one, but there are fingers to point at besides me. Am I calling people out? YA DAMN STRAIGHT.

I always thought I was the odd one in the family and that I was unwanted. Well not always, but back in my teen and pre-teen years I knew something wasn't right.

I start with my mother. Now that I look back on things and the way she treated and treats me 'til this day. I realized that she might have never wanted to me, or any child for that matter. My mother never spent time with me when I was young. Yes I knew she had a job and she had to work, but if I could rewind time and let you see what I saw, you're mind would change. As I got older she cared less about me and the older I got the less she cared. She couldn't wait 'til I grew up so she could go back to her partying life and her own life. Sometimes I wish I was the child she aborted or she would have given me up for adoption.

Next my grandmother, this woman can't keep her mouth shut. She'll tell everything which why I choose to never tell her anything and encourage my mother to never tell her anything, but she doesn't listen. My grandmother tells everybody everything. She does it on purpose and she does it to make fun. She loves talking about me and the things I USED to do, that she tells people I STILL do. But when you go to say things about her and my other cousins, she's ready to retaliate and pearl harbor you.

My great-grandmother. Who is evil. Yes I said evil. Don't like what I said dig a hole and bury yourself. I care nothing about you or your feelings. Sit on a ten-foot pole and fuck yourself and don't forget to have a nice day. Now I get that she is OLD and sick. I have met people her age and older, some sick like her, some more so and some less, and those women are the sweetest and nicest you could ever meet. I would go on but if I do, I might get disowned, but don't worry I wasn't going to say anything bad or damaging.

My problems are my problems. NOT yours. If you make my problems your problems. Then YOU'VE got problems, my friend, and YOU need to work on that, my friend.

I don't have a job and I live with my mother in an apartment. Who is to blame? ME!

Who is doing something about it? ME! What am I doing? NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS!

If you don't like what am I doing. Go sit on that ten-foot pole I was telling you about earlier!

I don't hate my life at all. In fact I love it. Don't tell me what I should love, like or do with my life. See? Get it? MY LIFE! Not yours. Worry about yours and leave mines the fuck alone. If I choose to do shit with my life and end up alone and broke or on the streets. Then leave me be.

I am a procrastinator. I admit it. I need to work on that. Putting me down isn't going help me or make me feel any better. Why do people think if they put you down that will make a person do better with their lives? That doesn't work. It only makes a person feel like shit. Why don't people try to be nice and try to encourage a person to do better? You don't have to all butterflies and gummy bears with it, but don't put a person down. I just guess it's just easier to be a bitch and rude, than it is to be nice. It takes too much strength and energy to be nice. So who is the weaker person now?

There are things I need to be doing and I am doing them. I may not be doing them the way you like or see fit. I am doing things the best way I can. You don't like it; again scroll up to the pole I keep talking about.

I don't blame anyone but myself. I put myself in the positions and situations that I am in. I did this to myself. I am trying to make things better for me, no one else but me. I care less about my family. Yes I know that is a shitty thing to say, but that is how I feel.

Not everyone is going to have a good relationship or a bad relationship or a relationship at all with their families. I'm fine with that. Do I wish my family got along? Yes! Do I wish we could get together and not have any problems? Yes! Do I wish we would not argue over stupid things and stab each other in the back and yelling at each other and so on? Yes! But we don't and that's that.

When I get my own and live on my own and do for myself. I choose to separate myself for majority of this family. The minorities know who they are. Yeah those 8 people, out of a possible 21 or more, know who they are. I would say names, but I am not.

I forgive and I choose to forget, but I can't live with it. God give me strength. I love myself and I am the only one who matters.

Kiss the kids for me!

What is a Coward?

I write blogs when I feel the need to. Sometimes I end up writing 2 to 5 blogs in one night. That's when I have a lot to say about a lot of different things that one blog cannot hold. This is one of those nights. Read at your own will, I can't force you.

Coward (n.) : one who lacks courage or shows shameful fear or timidity.
chicken, craven, dastard, poltroon, recreant, sissy; also defeatist, quitter, punk, wussy.

Like not standing up for ones self or for others, such as family members or friend, when they are not present to defend themselves. Cowards are contradictist too. They go against themselves when they are afraid to stand up for what the believe in. When someone talks about someone, that coward is right there to help talk about that someone, even when that someone is family or friends. Cowards are people I tend to frey from. People who I cannot stand.

It's hard when you live with a coward and that coward is someone of authority. You cannot not shake your head at a coward. You can't even stop yourself for laughing, in your head, sometimes out loud, at a coward. Try it and tell me about it.

Cowards have no backbone. It's shocking the stand up straight, but you then you see that YELLOW line lying on their back. That's a sign or caution and yeild. A warning that this person is a coward and you should stay away from this person. Cowards causes problems and should be shot on the spot. Yes I said shot. I wish death on no one, so when I say shot. I mean a shot of a dose of backbone juice and some clorox to wipe that yellow line away.

Oh cowards you cowards. What a waste of human flesh.